Life

Life.......

Today after a long time i am again in a reflective mood. So lets see what i end up writing today in this small blog of mine,.

lets discuss life, to be frank i have not found a single person who is truly happy, what is life all about, i think its all about that "Pursuit of happyness" that all , the people engage into.

When we were kids we used to think that we will be happy when we get out to a college as there will be no restrictions and homework. Then the time came and I started going to a college , but that true happyness was still not there, I actually started missing the concerns and motherly love our teachers and our school friends.

Then I thought ohk let me get a good job and then i will be happy, I get that job, and then I realize we are still not happy. We think now lets get a good raise and promotion and then I will be happy. Still after all the money and everything I m not happy.

Then comes lets buy that car that looks cool and I will be happy.....as soon as i know that i can buy the car ...and i buy that car......all the happyness vanishes...and then our mind starts to run to some other things to get that 'True happyness'.

I can easily say that i felt more happy when I bought my new school books rather than when i bought my Honda Civic.

basically through grace of the Almighty i have gone through some very drastic changes(positive) in my life in a very short period.

I have seen myself earning from what i used to earn in a month , to earning the same amount in 4 days. From there to earning in a month what i used to get in a year.This all has happened in a short span of 1-2 years.

Today i own a lot of things that i longed to own, all the expensive electronics, cars and much more. And i have the capacity to buy much more. which i can proudly declare to be a fruit of my own labour and my parents and Gods grace.

But the question still reamains the same, m i truly happy. The day i bought the civic i wanted a BMW. And now the next aim is to buy a BMW 7 series. But i m pretty sure once i achieve that aim, i will definitely have some other car in my mind that i would like to buy.

There is a lot of povery in this world, and the only time when you feel real happyness is when you feed someone who is hungry or help someone in misery. What matters in this world of all the worldly possessions is the People, and yet they are one the worst neglected and exploited members of the world.

Its been 23 years of my exsistence in this world, and i m still not sure what i m here to do in this world...and what is the reason for my existence. I m still finding that and hopefully will be successful very soon.





P.S. 'happiness' is mispelled as 'happyness' on purpose :)

For You.....

thinkpad T 61 15"

Ya, thats what the philosophy of life says

"Stay hungry, Stay Foolish"

I dont know what i m going to write in this entry, u know i have to think 10 times before writing anything on this blog, because i m very secretive about all my affairs, so how can you people expect me to write whatever that comes to mind in this blog. but then also once in a blue moon i feel the need to share something with this world, thats the time i turn on to this blog, to share myself with the world!

chalo lets start writing with my New IBM (lenovo ) Thinkpad T 61, ya friends i got a new thinkapd T61 imported recently from USA, ya i know its all the way too costly here about 81,000 Rs.

The laptop worked fine for the first few days, then suddenly one day the touchpad stopped working, thank God, My thinkpad came with an international warranty, so i just called up the IBM helpline, they gave me an complaint number, and i was told to submit my laptop in CP.

wich i did the next day, after a day passed i was informed that my laptops touchpad will be replaced and i can take my laptop back next day!!! Yes friends thats the benefit of taking an highend business laptop, i was given my laptop back witihin two days!!, hats off to ibm.

But i do have something to add here, why the hell did my thinkpad broke in its first 15 days of operation, you know thinkpads are known for their reliability and sturdiness, then also today i m writing this entry into the blog with my new thinkpad only, so its the tribute to my Thinkpad.

The keyboard of the thinkpad series of laptop is a bliss to type on, as it is good to type on TVS gold keyboards on desktops, another reason for going on to thinkpad :)

Many people including some of my friends deemed going for a thinkpad as a foolish decision, know its costly and moreover ut dont have a DVD writer, and only a 80 GB hdd, but then also i love my thinkpad, although i m pretty annoyed with its windows vista.

It gives a good battery backup around 3.5 hrs on a single charge!!, It has an integrated finger print reader, Bluetooth EDR wireless, it intel core 2 duo 7300, and it also comes with a integrated keyboard light, with wich you can easily type in an dark room on in during an Night flight!!

Then also i think that thinkpad is a Good buy for the people who need to have performance and stability, thats why i preferred this over a VAIO.

By the way, to keep some of the folks out there updated and who thought that VAIO is the coolest laptop on the planet, i would like to attract the attention to the fact that Vaio is cheaper than Thinkapad, and after my DVD writer, and player which happened to be on SONY broke, i dont trust Sony anymore, sony sucks....

The thing thats left for me to try is an APPLE MAC book, will get hands on this pretty soon....of all goes well.

Now today i m going to try install some Good linux distro on my thinkpad, like SUSE or Ubuntu.

ohkys guys enough bragging about my new thinkpad, just to add something more

here the configuration of my Thinkpad :)

		Intel® Core™ 2 Duo T7300 (2.0GHz 800MHz 4MBL2) [1]
		Genuine Windows Vista Home Basic [12]
		15.4 WXGA TFT
		1 GB PC2-5300 DDR2 SDRAM 667MHz SODIMM Memory (1 DIMM) [8]
		UltraNav (TrackPoint and TouchPad)
		80GB Hard Disk Drive, 5400rpm[4]
		DVD Combo, Ultrabay Slim [5]
		Intel Wireless Wi-Fi Link 4965AGN (supporting Centrino Pro) [10]
		6 cell Li-Ion Battery[60]
		6459: Express - 1 Yr Depot Warranty[7]

Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish!!

Mujhe nahi pata kya tha wo.............

Tha wo pyaar, ya thi wo meri naadaani.........

bus itna jaante hai........bus itna jaante hai........

wo they aise...........

jin par kurban..........

mera jeewan........meri jawani.........

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY

"JAI HIND"
"VANDE MATRAM"

Really heart touching.

I was a just-born and she was Twenty-Five ,
Though we were we, we were one.
I would cry out in Latin and she would respond in Greek,
I would learn nothing but she never got tired to teach.

I was surrounded by monsters eager to pull my cheek,
but they would vanish the moment i was wet and weep.
She would come running and hold me in her arms,
as if i had won the contest of the charms.

Now I was able to walk and chew,
hey, i was two.
I and she could now understand each other,
i was her everything and she needed no other.

I would try to walk and fall down,
But knowing she was with me, the fear of getting hurt was now gone.
We still could not converse that effectively,
But she would understand my needs so easily.

I could now roam about free,
because now i have turned three.
I was ready to join a new world,
my academic life was now gonna mould.

She would dress me as best as a prince,
but when i would come back, she would need at least an hour to rinse.
I was now able to talk,
I was a ferry and she was my dock.

I still remember the child, whose shirt I had tore,
Hey buddy, i have turned four.

I now came home a little late,
Nevertheless finding her waiting at the gate.
She would hug me and carry me in her arms,
it felt like flying through the farms.

We now did the homework together,
i would spoil the home and she used to work.

Years passed and now i was fifteen, and with each year i would forget to lean.
I wouldn't care for what she said, because now i had become mean.
She would ask me to study for a good future,
but i was busy in a different culture.
Now i had many shes in my life,
i dreamed of having one of them as my wife.

I changed a lot which she did not teach,
She would try to hug me but i was out of reach.
She still waited for me at the gate,
but i would look at her with utmost hate.
She would be awake till late in the night,
because i wasn't home, i was in a fight.
She had so much to scold, but she never did say,
hoping to find me better the next day.
Time went on and now i am grown,
lost in the world of my own.

I and she, between us have a river,
I have left her for my career.
When i was young, for me, she sacrificed her ambitions,
but i don't care, i now have my own mission.
I am not with her now, i am in a different city,
she is so old now but i don't even pity.

She needs me now but i am nowhere to find,
in the race for appraisal, i have become blind.
In a few years from now, i will be two,
there will be in my life someone new.
Then i'll forget even to bother,
i am her son and she my Mother.......

You

When you are sad,
and you feel you can't go on.
Tears well in your eyes
and the pain is so strong.

So far from your friends,
and you're all on your own.
No-one to run to,
So very alone.


When all seems so useless,
and you can't take anymore.
As you put on your coat,
and head for the door.

Remember.......

I was there once,
lost, all alone
You can cry in my ear,
Just pick up the phone.


When you are lonely and feeling so blue
Someone is thinking ...thinking of you

My feelings.....HAPPINESS

Just felt like writing all the thoughts that are in my mind at this time.......today i m feeling a bit mellow, not the enthusiastic self that i m usually like........i dont know but there is something missing in my life.......that i dont know.....may be i m too impatient. I m generally happy from the inside, and for the last few days i m not finding that happiness or what we call as internal happiness, i dont know whats the reason exactly.

I was a bit lo today, it happens life is full of ups and down, but a feeling of general dissatisfaction lingers through, may be its the work thats taking the toll on me, or may be i m missing my frnds and my college, maybe i m missing the freedom, maybe i m missing something that i dont want to acknowledge, in this world no one is happy all people want to be happy in some way or other, thats why we look at new ways to be happy, some people party, some drink, some try to find the happiness in the solace of their lover, some do the the things they love to do......but all want to be happy man is always chasing happiness, but NO ONE.......from a beggar to a Millionaire is truly happy.

I know that this will pass, i know that i will feel happy and enthusiastic again.......but i just felt like writing the things down.



When we were children we had the ability to be happy even at all the small things of life , we became happy when we saw a beautiful flower, when we got small presents at our bday, when we got our fav chocolate, when we saw our fav cartoon.....we were happy, carefree, enthusiastic, colloquial, and just HAPPY. there was no rat race in which we had to win, we were happy in our small world.

So why dis happiness gradually dies down as we grow up, as children we were happy even at the small things of life, but now we have many big things then also we are not truly happy.

So the key to happiness is not outside us, but it lies inside us, we should learn again to get happy at the small things and pleasures of life, at the beauties of nature, at the small things (that are not really small) that life gives us.



Best way to be happy is to make someone happy, if you could bring a smile even on the face of a single person,you will certainly feel good, and if you want to be truly happy then there is only one place where you find true peace and happiness....long everlasting happiness the happiness that a child has, thats in the feet of GOD.



We should consider ourself lucky at the things that the GOD has given us, he is very kind to us. So Guys.....

God has a Plan for everyone...................and GOD is GOOD...............So be happy dont worry.........CHEERS :-).

If I could catch a rainbow
I would do it just for you
and share with you its beauty
On the days you're feeling blue.

If I could build a mountain
You could call your very own;
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone.

If I could take your troubles
I would toss them in the sea,
But all these things I'm finding
are impossible for me.

I cannot build a mountain
Or catch a rainbow fair,
But let me be what I know best,
A friend who's always there.

"ANGLES"

"ANGLES"

A drunken man in an Oldsmobile

They said had run the light

That caused the six-car pileup

On 109 that night.

When broken bodies lay about

"And blood was everywhere,"

"The sirens screamed out eulogies,"

For death was in the air.

"A mother, trapped inside her car,"

Was heard above the noise;

Her plaintive plea near split the air:

"Oh, God, please spare my boys!"

She fought to loose her pinned hands;

"She struggled to get free,"

But mangled metal held her fast

In grim captivity.

Her frightened eyes then focused

"On where the back seat once had been,"

But all she saw was broken glass and

Two children's seats crushed d in.

Her twins were nowhere to be seen;

"She did not hear them cry,”

"And then she prayed they'd been thrown free,”

"Oh, God, don't let them die!”

Then firemen came and cut her loose,”

"But when they searched the back,”

"They found therein no little boys,”

But the seat belts were intact.

They thought the woman had gone mad

"And was traveling alone,”

"But when they turned to question her,”

They discovered she was gone.

Policemen saw her running wild

And screaming above the noise

"In beseeching supplication,”

Please help me find my boys!

They're four years old and wear blue shirts;

"Their jeans are blue to match.""

"One cop spoke up, ""They're in my car,”

And they don't have a scratch.

They said their daddy put them there

"And gave them each a cone,”

Then told them both to wait for Mom

To come and take they home.

"I've searched d the area high and low,”

But I can't find their dad.

"He must have fled the scene,”

"I guess, and that is very bad."

"The mother hugged the twins and said,”

"While wiping at a tear,”

"He could not flee the scene, you see,”

"For he's been dead a year."

"The cop just looked confused and asked,”

"Now, how can that be true?”

"The boys said, ""Mommy, Daddy came”

"And left a kiss for you."" "

He told us not to worry

"And that you would be all right,”

And then he put us in this car with

"The pretty, flashing light.”

"We wanted him to stay with us,”

"Because we miss him so,”

"But Mommy, he just hugged us tight”

And said he had to go.

He said someday we'd understand

"And told us not to fuss,”

"And he said to tell you, Mommy,”

"He's watching over us."

The mother knew without a doubt

"That what they spoke was true,”

"For she recalled their dad's last words,” " I will watch over

You."

The firemen's notes could not explain

"The twisted, mangled car,”

And how the three of them escaped

Without a single scar.

"But on the cop's report was scribed,”

"In print so very fine,”

An angel walked the beat tonight on Highway 109.

ANGELS EXIST but some times, since they don't all have wings, we

Call them FRIENDS........